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Apr. 5th, 2019 08:03 pmIt is my grandfather's birthday today. My child caries part of his name.
I miss him, still, now, always. Daily.
There's so much more I could say but instead my kiddo is serenading me with silly songs (including some ukulele accompaniment) and my heart is so full of joy and resonance that I'm nearly speechless. My grandpa sang silly made-up songs to me for all the years we overlapped in this world (19 which was more than we expected and of course, not nearly enough). Where he was calm and mellow (and well, much older), my child is wildly energetic. Both are deeply loving ... and great makers of silly, spontaneous songs.
It's the sweetest thing in the midst of the deep longing, the raw missing despite more years without my grandfather than I had with me ...
I'm filled with joy and deep gratitude over this commonality between these precious beings who live in my heart and life.
I miss him, still, now, always. Daily.
There's so much more I could say but instead my kiddo is serenading me with silly songs (including some ukulele accompaniment) and my heart is so full of joy and resonance that I'm nearly speechless. My grandpa sang silly made-up songs to me for all the years we overlapped in this world (19 which was more than we expected and of course, not nearly enough). Where he was calm and mellow (and well, much older), my child is wildly energetic. Both are deeply loving ... and great makers of silly, spontaneous songs.
It's the sweetest thing in the midst of the deep longing, the raw missing despite more years without my grandfather than I had with me ...
I'm filled with joy and deep gratitude over this commonality between these precious beings who live in my heart and life.
