kimberlogic

It is my grandfather's birthday today. My child caries part of his name. 
I miss him, still, now, always. Daily.
There's so much more I could say but instead my kiddo is serenading me with silly songs (including some ukulele accompaniment) and my heart is so full of joy and resonance that I'm nearly speechless.  My grandpa sang silly made-up songs to me for all the years we overlapped in this world (19 which was more than we expected and of course, not nearly enough). Where he was calm and mellow (and well, much older), my child is wildly energetic. Both are deeply loving ... and great makers of silly, spontaneous songs. 

It's the sweetest thing in the midst of the deep longing, the raw missing despite more years without my grandfather than I had with me ...
I'm filled with joy and deep gratitude over this commonality between these precious beings who live in my heart and life.

A lot has been going on and I've been too busy to even write about it ...
Some good, some meh ... but I still wake up every day feeling damn grateful for my breathe, my motion, my loves
I'm depressed as f*ck* over the state of our country and much of the world, though ... really down.

One thing I'm really happy about right now - I walked an average of 6 miles per day every day for the last 12 days! My knee is doing better and I'm really hoping to be doing a lot more walking, dancing and physical stuff from now on ...

This week has an evening seminar I need to attend, open-enrollment work at my very-much-part-time HR gig, getting my kiddo back into the groove of school after an extended absence due to travel & illness, an evening yoga workshop, a house that needs serious tidying/cleaning before a previously unplanned visit from one of N's grandparents, and costume prep for our annual appearance at Comicazi's Family Halloween Costume Party. My birthday is also this week and I've been struggling with how to celebrate. I had planned on going to the Prom Do Over - and I still wiill
but lately I just keep thinking of wanting to celebrate with soup and snuggles. I'll have to find a way - and a time - to do both.

I feel lucky to be alive and able to do so much but also overwhelmed and lonely for social-friend time. However, instead of sitting here on social media and looking up soup recipes online, I should go actually clean my bathroom and do some laundry. Perhaps I can work on finding better balance between wants and chores next week, as my gift to myself.

How are you?

I'm here - likely not posting much until May, as the next few weeks are very busy and I'm overwhelmed by the sheer number of things to do and worries both small and large. Like, you know, how 45 is an incompetent racist warmonger.

Gradually importing LJ entries here as well.

What's new with all of you?

New here. Not sure whether I'll cross-post with LJ ... have grabbed both kimberlogic and passioncat.